When time and weather permits, I enjoy walking various trails along the Hudson River in upstate New York. Once I’ve found a particularly beautiful, secluded spot, I’ll sit down, close my eyes, and inhale deeply.
As I try to empty my mind of the multitude of thoughts, I catch glimpses of moments when I failed to love. I hear the sarcasm and gossip and hate that escaped my lips just hours earlier.
Who was that? I can’t believe I said that!
But it’s done. It’s over. Love now.
I need to love now.
Breathe again. Slowly. Deeply. Smell the trees. Feel the breeze. Release the tension as my shoulders ease down and my arms become weightless.
Before I can move on and love others, I need to let go of the negativity I feel toward myself.
Before I can love others, I must love myself.
Breathe. Smile. Breathe.
Christian works two full-time jobs: one as a counselor at a home for youth with developmental disabilities, and one as a volunteer service coordinator at a youth detention facility (both in upstate NY). Having worked in these fields for over three years now, Christian confidently says that kindness has more immediate and long-lasting power than cold authority.
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